Hey

YO HI !! :D

it's been probably 2months that I didn't update my blog :)

so I'm gonna tell u that 

I feel satisfied with my PMR result but

NOT THAT MUCH :)

oh gosh how come I got that result :(

I thought I could change to a good class 

I thought I could learn more things form Good TEACHER 

But What I got is 

BULLSHITS 

after letting a teacher taught who is teaching me science

I regret like hell !

I really feel so :(

after that all I begin to change 

change to another people who doesn't seems that happy anymore 

I pray every night for my life

but why I FEEL it's more like something is wrapping me tightly 

Nowadays 

I know that good teacher is hard to find 

wont be lazy 

wont be stupid 

I feel so useless 

:) 

sometimes I just will like 

pretending I was really fine to u 

I feel I'm not enough good to u 

I just keep giving your trouble 

I can't give u what u want 

am I that worse :(

do u worth it when being with me :(

dear boy 

I'm not happy now 

 

can u just be with me this once 

 

I'm about to letting u know 

 

I was happy all the time

 

could I just give up and try again 

 

or just giving up 

 

I can't hold it anymore 

 

I'm so tired 

 

I am so sad right now 

 

I may just used to tearing everynight 

 

And nobody knows 

 

goodnight ? :) 

 

   

 

 

I miss u ...

How could I put my expectation so high on u 

How could that be ?

I admit that friend are the first I put in 

But you were too 

What have u been ?

You have changed 

What else Would make u more positively ?

I trust u 

 

But u never understand what I want I need 

 

All I want is u 

 

I want the old u 

 

Where have u been :( Please fuck off your bad habit 

 

I hate what u did to your friend 

 

even u treat the same way to me as what u did to your friend

 

I know u hate what I did to u too 

 

I know u been pissing off her and me 

 

always think what kind of person u were 

 

Your bad habit are still being with u 

 

What can I do ?

 

I felt that I'm worthless 

 

I can't help u anything 

 

I can only letting u doing wrong and wrong 

 

what else can I do 

 

Just watching u doing the right thing u been doing ?

 

No 

 

U can't do that :(

 

But you just .. :(

 

I wish u could understand 

 

..

 

I think I'm over tired 

 

So I would easier to get mad 

 

even u ask me something that is  nonsense to me 

I will just getting piss off 

Sleepless and Insecure  .. 

I care too much on u 

And it's killing me  

I love u 

And It's killing me 

I miss the old u 

Please come back to me 

I really miss  :'( 

good night 

I pray for u my baby boy ..

 

 

Oh I'm strong enough to face those problems :)

Hey guys 

I've been studying for my PMR  

and I have no much time to stand and stare 0.0

I'm nervous anytime when I heard a word 

PMR 

I may just try to take it easy and be myself 

Well 

 

Thank God always be with when I was in trouble 

 

no matter what I have bring in a day 

 

I still believe in u my Lord Father :)

 

.

 

I felt much batter after prayed with all my friends 

 

I mean 

 

with one big family ;D

 

Thanks for warming my heart 

 

Love u guys 

 

BabyMiao 

 

she is so perfect to me 

 

she's cute :) 

 

 

Guess who is this ? :)

yea 

BEIBEI XD

see how fat is she 

haha 

But it's okay 

I'll always love u 

 

no matter how u grow 

 

I love this type of hair style 

but it's not suit to me :(

to be more perfect 

is to be more stronger :D

 

See how boring I was

 

These pictures were meant 

 

Oh dear Sejarah 

 

Please accept my love that I've been given to u 

 

so now 

 

u gotta love me more than I do 

 

..

 

 

I pray everyday 

 

as Ms.liew and Pn.kong said 

 

When u don't know what to do 

 

Pray :) 

 

We are the child of god 

 

no matter what we are going to went through 

 

 Pray :) 

Before exam 

Pray :)

wake up in the morning 

Pray :)

before going to bed 

Pray :)

If u got trouble or mad 

Pray :) 

Praying solve your problem 

make u more peaceful and better 

Oh Dear Lord Father , 

Thanks for being with me always 

I do give you my life 

I do always follow what u been teaching 

I love you 

Amen .

Sorry

Hi , I'm sorry

I'm sorry what I've done

I'm sorry what i did to u

I've been lie to u

I know u still cant accept cant forgive

It's okay , same as I'm accepting your pretended

pretending you've been forgive us

it hurts enough to let u know the truth

better than anything

U changed because the truth

I know u would hate us

especially HIM

stop pretending and tell me your problem

although i can't solve but at least u share with me

Thanks for being my friend I'm appreciate

Im such a betrayer to u

I've hurt u make u unhappy all the time

 I knew your feelings

I knew what would happen to u

I knew ... so I been given these to u

because if this may change our relationship

I wish it would still there for us

no more changing until like .. Stranger

I LOVE U FRIEND

please stop thinking and be a little generous

If u re not going to forgive

I'll know what to do next ..

U gonna give up on us ..

..

whenever we're chatting

the sense are getting so weird

so strange ..

doesn't make sense

I think i may give u a years for the space

SORRY NO CURE

U HAVE BEEN WOUNDED

AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING

I JUST ONLY CAN DO IS

SORRY .. 

fuckyea

NEVER STOP BASKETBALL ? 

i can't believe who i've followed with 

i can't believe my fate 

i can't keep going on with all these bullshit 

nobody understand my feeling 

no one realize 

they were actually being used 

WHY 

 u'll never understand how bad is him 

i love you guys 

i don't want u guys to get bully 

from this fucking asshole man 

this guy can't keep any promise 

and he only know how to sucks your money

 

hmmm 

 

i just feeling regret and betrayed 

 

although i'm not going to give up playing basketball 

 

but i will not believe him again 

 

came to my house yesterday taahaa 

couldn't sleep this afternoon 

i was tired and lazy 

but i can't even fall as sleep 

i saw u 

when i was closing my eyes lol

 

GO DIE LA 

 

so i decided to just wake up and waited for my lunch lol

 

and then chat with choipo 

 

i sent this photo to her 

 

while chatting with her bahahah

i knew she will scared 

so i purposely did it [Sly]

i wrote 

i can't sleep ... 

Ignore my messy hair -..-

hmm don't know what to type

erm 

thanks for giving your love 

your trusted 

 your comfort

 

your cares 

 

and your everything 

 

i'll give back to u next time :P 

randomly

Woaaaah 

 

look at this guy 

he is sooooo damnnn pretty 

don't know why 

i like this kind of man 

 although he wasn't a girl 

but he brave enough to face his fears

 

he was so prefect to me  :)

 

Awwww

a little baby poodle dog

 

look into it eyes 

 

and you'll fell with it 

 

so cuteee 

 

look's exactly like BEIBEI 

 

i miss her so much beibei :(

 

i hope she still remember me 

 

the only babe i love with 

 

and now 

 

this is her :) 

see i said so 

exactly the same right ? :)

fatty dum dum hehe 

i want to hug u tightly man 

miss u right now 

don't u miss etjiejie too ? :) 

watched THE WOLVERINE

and studied with nerdy girl yesterday haha 

 

the wolverine was the best movie ever to me 

 

it has touching , funny ,exciting part 

 

and so logic 

 

logan was so handsome 

 

he has 8packs omgoshh so strong 

 

the biggest muscle i ever seen 

 

 

before going to watch movie haha 

we went to play basketball only for shooting :P

then we went to Starbucks after watching movie 

and study together 

 

 

until the night we tired of studying

so we just chat and having our tea 

we talk many funny things and laugh so hardly

i love that feels 

I appreciate what u've done for me

i don't want a person who didn't understand me to be my lover 

i hate being used 

being ignored 

being hmm

i don't want a person who'll change in front of me

 

i just want a past of u 

 

i don't want a new u 

 

uncomfortable without the past of u 

 

nobody understand ..

 

 

 

 

 

UNDERSTOOND AND I DON'T CARE

I just don't know what He want

Sunddenly treat me bad sunddenly treat me good 

did I wrong ? 

Please why don't ask me first 

Yea i don't like u 

But i'm not the kind of person u thought ! 

The status I posted not writing u 

Why can't u be a little positive 

You're innocent enough to let me famous Alan .. 

I know I treated u like a shit last night 

It doesn't mean I blaming u 

I just tired of listining what u said last night 

Since u started to say Jenny And AhHang 

And I just wanted u to stop that 

U believed them more than belive me 

What else I can say 

Haha , Am I that fool ? 

I just don't want to let u wrongly me 

It's okay that u didn't believe me 

 I don't need 

Oh yea , U're not innocent

I am 

So what ? I should let u hate me more 

I don't want to explain 

I don't want to retrieve u 

I'm still a student 

I'm not going to train with u always ! 

I need to study ! and freedom !

Why i have to train train train and go back lately with u ! 

Why i have to do that ! 

This sounds like you're my dad 

walaooo

If u let me no freedom 

I'll let your neck broken 

I don't care who's your dogs 

I never depend on u 

I never need u 

Yeah as u said u want to being asshole 

Just go ahead 

Don't ever give a fuck 

U SUCKS :)